I finished my doctor degree dissertation and Ishtar recording
May 12th, 2012 — Last Tuesday, I submitted my dissertation. Five years of hard work, composing, studying, researching, giving lectures, working in side jobs during studies, all that ended Tuesday afternoon, when I submitted six copies of dissertation, six copies of four different scores, six CDs.
You surely guess that I feel for that an immense joy. But it comes also with the impression to turn a page of your life. Before, I was a student being accountable to his supervisors, having a schedule, a goal, a laid out path. Now, I am a worker having extreme freedom to make his life, to choose projects in which he seeks accomplishment... or do nothing. Sure, there is the thrill of possibilities. There is also the vertigo of consequences of my choices for which I am entirely responsible. There is finally a nostalgia of a time where I had a goal without asking (or wanting to ask) too much questions.